Cat Found

January 22, 2009

img_6505img_6500img_6499img_6498Black Beauty, the stray cat I found outside of 97 Estoria Restaurant on Tuesday night, is doing well. If anyone knows of someone missing this cat, please let me know. Also, if anyone is looking for a cat let me know that as well. I am posting flyers today and getting her (not a boy like I originally thought) scanned to see if she has a micro-chip. Lets hope that she does, and then she can go back to her owner (if she has one). Most animals (especially cats) do not, though, so I’m not holding my breath. So, keep in mind anyone looking to add a new member to your fam she is lovely and very well mannered. Obviously, I will update you all in regards to whether or not she has a chip and owner which would be great, but like I said, not likely.

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me

October 17, 2008

Self Portrait

April 24, 2008

Dreaming With a Broken Heart

February 29, 2008

It’s 3:44 p.m. and I’m in bed. Visited the good ol’ doctor today and found out I have some kind of bacterial infection…aka. I’m sick! What else is knew? I will be ill for a few days, but hopefully tomorrow I will be feeling a little better, bc I have to shoot for Large Format class.
Things have been hard for me, these past few months. I started taking anti-depressants in late October or November or something. When Christmas break came around, I’d run out. I couldn’t get more though, bc it was the holidays and what not. Apparently, it is pretty dangerous to go off them. Anyway, I finally got some again and then ran out again a few weeks ago and things went from bad to worse. Last week, I honestly wanted to die. The way I felt was a way I had NEVER felt before. It was obvious that it was happening bc I’d stopped taking the medicine. Anyway, when I finally went to see the doctor again he perscribed me to another kind instead and said “you think it’s bad going off the medicine you had before…DEFINITELY don’t stop taking this new kind suddenly.”

I will say, though, that this new kind seems to not be so bad, although it’s probably a bit too early to really tell. Plus, I just happen to have been really sick the past few days.  I think about who I am. I wonder what people would think of me and who I was if I died. It occurs to me that we are all very presumptuous. The more I hear others talking about other people, deaths, etc… the more it scares me. It scares me, bc I want to know that someone knows who I really am. I want to know that if I am gone, someone will remember me for who I was. Just bc I might take medicine, just bc I might’ve had some issues as a teen, just bc I might say ‘I want to die’ one night on the phone bc I’m upset or whatever….does not mean that I really want to die. It doesn’t mean that I want to be remembered that way. I’m not sure how much sense any of this makes to whoever is reading this. 
Then there are the boys. The romance (or lack there of), the friends, the bestfriends, the ex’s… This has always been a struggle for me, I suppose. People are always saying I’m pretty and why don’t I have a boyfriend. It’s like, geez people, maybe I don’t like anyone!
But then, there is one boy. We have the strangest relationship. What is interesting about it is that it is one of a kind. It actually does seem to have grown and be growing. I am not particularly referencing romance. I just mean, we seem to learn from our mistakes and try to understand each other. I have never really had a relationship like that before. That being said, there are plenty of things that aren’t so great…such is life. 

Ill write more later  

she’s a rejector

December 29, 2007

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lights

December 29, 2007

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Surrealism Project

December 23, 2007

This book I bought last year called “Drop Dead Cute” has ten “new” female Japanese artists that are all really great. Anyway, for my Digital Photographic Production class, I had this past quarter, one of the projects we had to do was a surrealist one. I used some pieces from Atsushi Fukui..and obviously changed them a lot…as well as put a pic of my self in there…see if you can find it:)baxleyproject4.jpg

Don’t You Evah

September 29, 2007

i SUPPOSE i should put my blogs from myspace on here too..i always forget though.

below is from sep.10th.

Those of us who carry the responsibility of knowledge and being perceptive have it tough sometimes. I know, I often feel misunderstood and saddened by the world. Sometimes wishing I were ignorant and comfortable in the beautiful (although fake) blanket of lies that most are more than happy to inhabit. Yet, like I always say, it’s worth it. Sometimes I have to make myself think it’s worth it..but I’m uhh, pretty sure it is? ha

So, as each day passes by, things really do get better. I mean, I can honestly sit here and say that. Does that mean things are just constantly improving and I’m so incredibly perceptive that I notice and appreciate it all the time? Not so much. Shitstorms still frequent my life and I still get in “I hate the world” moods. I’m still my own worst enemy. I still self-sabotage any potential romantic relationship and push people away.

But the point is, I do have these moments, of mild clarity, when I can see through the bullshit of the world and my own self..and I realize it is all better and getting better. I have grown. I am growing. I have met a lot of dickwads. I still meet a lot of dickwads. But thing’s are starting to come together, you see. Such is life..or something like that.

Coming into your own, growing up, experiencing more, learning what to look for, learning what you want..it’s kind of beautiful.

You know, in that annoying kind of way.

So the next time you wake up hung-over next to some guy/girl in an unknown place and feel like your head is going to explode and hope everything’s alright “down there” just remember….at least you don’t have Herpes. (That you know of anyway.)

September 19, 2007

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All Is Full of Love

September 18, 2007

bjorkcover_thumb.jpgjust wanted to tell you all, the bjork show last night was AMAZING. it was inspiring, touching, fun, invigorating…it was one of the best shows i have ever been to in my life…and i’ve been to a lot of shows, people.

DECLARE INDEPENDENCE

declare independence
don’t let them do that to you
declare independence
don’t let them do that to you

– justice-

declare independence
don’t let them do that to you
declare independence
don’t let them do that to you

– justice –

start your own currency
make your own stamp
protect your language

– justice –

declare independence
don’t let them do that to you
declare independence
don’t let them do that to you

make your own flag
make your own flag
make your own flag
make your own flag

raise your flag
raise your flag
raise your flag
raise your flag
raise your flag
raise your flag

declare independence
don’t let them do that to you
declare independence
don’t let them do that to you

damn colonists
ignore their patronizing
tear off their blindfold
open their eyes

declare independence
don’t let them do that to you
declare independence
don’t let them do that to you

with a flag and a trumpet
go to the top
of your highest mountain

and raise your flag
raise your flag
raise your flag
raise your flag
raise your flag
raise your flag

declare independence
don’t let them do that to you
declare independence
don’t let them do that to you

raise the flag